Balancing Act

   I feel like my life has been nothing, but one big balancing act lately. I have work, family, friends, and my writing but only 168 hours in a week. 
   Lately I feel like I'm letting my friendships go to the weigh side. Then again when I start hanging out with my friends more I feel like I'm neglecting my marriage. My work seems to take up a lot of my time, but it's really important to me to be the best at what I do.
   I sit around waiting for people to invite me to hang out with them because I suck at inviting people to go out with me. I'm always afraid, deep down, that they're going be too busy and say no. Then, foolishly, I feel rejected. For example, I sent a text, two hours ago, inviting all of my friends to go out with me for my b-day and I haven't heard back from even one person yet. I know they're all busy with their lives too, but I'm still freaking out a little bit.
  I know it's pretty stupid to feel this way, but I honestly can't help it. All of my friends work the late shift and I work during the day so it's really hard to find the time outside of the weekend to spend time with them. My husband and I only have Saturday nights and Sundays together. So I try to spend time with him on the weekends. 
   I know it sounds simple, why don't we all just hang out at the same time, but that's just too many people with too many opinions in one place. I have quite a few friends now, but I think I can only handle hanging out with no more than three or four at a time. 
   When I hang out with several friends at once I stop concentrating on myself and my own needs and start thinking about everyone else's feelings and needs. I try to make sure no one feels excluded or like an outcast. So I think it's really exhausting to spend time with everyone at once, but regardless I love them all and want to spend my birthday with them. Is that too much to ask?